“Dear Ma,
It’s quite a pleasant surprise that you’re on line…
My questions are many but let ma ask this – why am I not able to articulate
what my assignment is, even when I’ve been praying for a while?…
We now attend … church of God. Somehow it has been impossible for me to go through their ‘workers in training’ program. I need to be sure what my ministerial calling is first, to even be able to know how to go about it.
Right now I work at a Montessori teacher training school for early childhood yrs. I first did the training and worked in a pre-school and now here. Secularly I’m hoping to start a pre-school in the near future. Having said this, I believe there’s more to what the Lord will have me do than raise a family.
Shalom”

My answer:
“Dear…
I will try to answer you, to help you. But some questions, only God alone can answer to you.
You are a child of God! What you need now is revival!
I see that you are living a good life. Often, the good is the enemy of the best. God is calling us upwards, towards the high mark of holiness in Christ Jesus. That is more than a good, nice life…
Good is dangerously safe. It is very hard to leave the good behind and start climbing the mountain of God to achieve eternal success and fruit that abides. It is possible that you have compromised the highest calling from God, that you have silently rejected it. God does not force anyone to answer His call. If any man rejects God’s highest best, he shall have some level of peace in this life as a believer, but regrets and frustrations shall be his constant companions. There is a price to pay for total fulfillment which is found in Christ alone. If you meet any person who is totally happy and satisfied, serving God, that one met God’s conditions for divine success. It does not happen just by ‘hard work’ or by ‘getting old’…
Climbing the holy mountain starts with prayer for revival. God answers prayers but He always answers desperate prayers in Jesus name. You need to reject the spiritual passivity that has enveloped your soul. Your friends may think that to be lukewarm is fashionable. But it makes Jesus ‘sick’!
Cry to God for His mercy! Promise that you shall pay the price for a greater passion for Jesus! Vow to give Him all the glory for your progress! If your church is not a living church, then go away and find another! ‘Throw the ball back’ to God! Then go back to your foundation! Start afresh, read the Bible, fast and pray. There is no other simpler way. Then flesh will slowly die and the spirit in you shall be revived. I pray that God will grant a new hunger for Jesus in your heart!
As for me, I am ahead of you, follow my foot steps, as I follow the ones of my Master…It is time to climb up!

“I am dark but beautiful,
O women of Jerusalem—
dark as the tents of Kedar,
dark as the curtains of Solomon’s tents…
Don’t stare at me because I am dark—
the sun has darkened my skin.
My brothers were angry with me;
they forced me to care for their vineyards,
so I couldn’t care for myself—my own vineyard.
Tell me, my love, where are you leading your flock today?

Where will you rest your sheep at noon?
For why should I wander like a prostitute
among your friends and their flocks?

If you don’t know, O most beautiful woman,
follow the trail of my flock
and graze your young goats by the shepherds’ tents” (Song 1:5-8)

Love in Christ alone
Malia”