Jesus said: “Do you see this woman? I came into your house. You did not give Me any water for My feet, but she wet My feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. You did not give Me a kiss, but this woman, from the time I entered, has not stopped kissing My feet. You did not put oil on My head, but she has poured perfume on My feet. Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven as her great love has shown…” (Lk 7:44-47)
The woman came uninvited. She had no key to enter; no password to open any door; just tears and a stained face from melting mascara. No greeting given to the host and his friends; possibly because they were ‘past costumers’ who saw her nakedness but never her tears. For it is the law of prostitutes: ‘Never love and never weep’! She came uninvited by men but led by the Spirit. She fell at Jesus’ feet. She wept and wept. Hot tears became as water as she kissed the sandals He would walk in to the Calvary Hill the next day. The ointment was all she had that she did not sell. The bottle was beautiful. The seal intact, kept for a wedding that could never come. ‘This is my Bridegroom. I have discovered Him. He will be mine for a few hours and then gone to the tree, that I may be forgiven and free. I found true love at last… even if so late…’ (Inspired from Song of Songs 3: 1-4)
The host invited my Jesus in his big house but did not fully welcome Him. No bath to wash. No soap. No sheets on the bed. No breakfast in the morning. No kiss. No looking into His eyes. No open heart. No memories shared.
‘Do you see this woman?’ Yes! This woman is me! Like a bird with broken wings I sit at His feet and all I can do is to weep. I feel the empty bucket with my tears. I break the alabaster box to be His soap. I weep and I kiss… All my words are drowning in the pool… some are floating in the air, the fragrance of holy perfume. For some it is the smell of death; for others, the smell of life. Perfumed sermon and faith that makes whole. What more do I want? It is finished!
At the feet of my Master, I lose all sense of time and all my fears. I am loved much and forgiven much. None can take my peace. Jesus gave it to me and it is mine. My reputation? I forgot the meaning of it or the desire to please men. Down at His feet is where you will find me. I will lose myself; yet find myself again… worshiping at His feet. Come and meet me there… It is well with my soul!
In Christ I declare:
All my tears are now jewels in His Crown!
In Jesus’ name,
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I received this letter from a daughter in Christ. She is a young wife and mother. She is a faithful in her ministry in the church. She is a woman of God. I am blessed seeing that my spiritual children are maturing spiritually and live fruitful lives. I use her letter as a point of contact to encourage anyone who is under attack and especially who wants to start a new business. May God help you! Trust God to the end! If you want to bless this sister, feel free to comment. She will read it. God bless you my readers! In Jesus’ name!

“Dear Malia, Thank you for finding time to read my letter. Ma, I appreciate that. For some time I have been under attack. I am trying to start a new business and the devil is trying to stop me. I have never done this type of business before. It is totally new for me but I have prayed to God and I have peace about it. God gave me the idea. I trust God for everything, for the location of my shop, for the wisdom, strength and the capital. I know that the devil cannot stop me but he has been deceiving me that he is able to block my way. I fasted and prayed for discernment and I now recognize that it was an evil spirit tormenting me, telling me that I made a mistake, tormenting me about the business plans and making me having regret about resigning my present job… the devil brought fear about the type of business I want to start which is different than my present job… I had serious anxiety about a new beginning in my career, in ‘my business-life’. For some time I fell for its deception and distraction but God will have His way in me and there will be victory in the end!

This past Sunday, my pastor spoke on ‘tormenting spirits’. And tonight, I remembered the sermon and realized the negotiation about the money was tormenting me. To make its worse, my baby got sick. I was burdened because of my child and in that moment of weakness these tormenting spirits attacked me.
Last night I could not sleep. I was inspired by your letter about ‘night ministry’. I prayed to God. I silently cried on my bed. God restored peace, faith and courage to my soul. The devil is wicked and perverts thoughts and puts fear to replace confidence from God. I am humbled today to have discovered this and all the more want to hide inside the deepest part of the Holy Spirit. I already prayed that even when I make mistakes, that God will turn it around for good. My scripture that I’ve been trying to memorize this week is Jeremiah 17:7 (I think) it says blessed is the one whose trust and confidence is in the Lord. I am blessed. God bless you Ma! Your daughter in Christ…”

“Blessed is the man (the woman) who trusts in the Lord,
And whose hope is the Lord.
For he (she) shall be like a tree planted by the waters,
Which spreads out its roots by the river,
And will not fear when heat comes;
But its leaf will be green,
And will not be anxious in the year of drought,
Nor will cease from yielding fruit” (Jer 17:7, 8)


“My child, I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you on the palms of My hands; your walls are ever before Me” (Is 49:15, 16)
This evening, during the first prayer meeting in 2019, we entered God’s courts with thanksgiving. So many people lie down on their sick beds. Many have died last year. But we are alive. It is not by mistake. We give thanks for the gift of life! “Praise the Lord Oh, my soul, and all that is within me praise His Holy Name!” I was born to worship God! I do not boast of beauty, riches of education. I shamelessly boast that I know the only Living God. He is my God. I know His Word, His Spirit, His goodness, His touch! Worship the Lord! He is the Helper of the helpless! You are alive to praise God. You are alive because God has not finished with you. His grace-work goes on, until perfection comes, until testimony is visible. God has not finished with you! Therefore, do not ‘finish’ with yourself. Do not give yourself ‘deadlines’. You belong to Jesus! He died to pay your debt, your ‘bride price’ for your wedding in heaven. God knows you. Not just you lost in the crowd, but you alone. God knows you in particular. He knows your name, your address, your prayers and your tears. God’s plans for you are good, not evil, to give you a future and a hope.
God wrote your name on the palms of His hands. God said that even if a mother forgets the baby at her breast, He will never forget you. As He sits on His throne in heaven, God remembers you, for good. In between the angels’ songs, in between holy thunders of heaven, God remembers you. If your friend, neighbor or family member forgets you, God remembers you. And that is all that matters. Worship the Lord who alone changes hearts and circumstances. Worship the Lord who has granted you a new beginning. Forget not His benefits! The past does not define you! Let the past rest behind. Worship the Lord who never sleeps nor slumbers! Singing: How great is your God? From East to West, no other god, from North to South, I say, there is no other god! Almighty God, hallowed be Your name, Your dominion is forever more! Hallelujah!
sll and toju


“Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. When they saw Him, they worshiped him; but some doubted” (Matt 28:16, 17)
Doubt is a type of faith. It is very difficult to describe, detect, or imagine. It is much easier to identify the sin of lust or lying, for example, than to isolate doubt from our mind. Doubt is wavering faith, unstable faith, damaged and unacceptable faith. Doubt is an evil religious spirit. It spreads like a plague. It is much more difficult to produce faith in your listeners. You have to preach the Word of God, the Gospel of Christ Crucified. This ministry has to be done patiently against all odds. Faith comes by the hearing of the preached Word of God. Doubt is like an infection. It is much easier to damage the faith than to produce or increase it. Doubters hate believers and attack their faith. Be careful who you call ‘friend!’
Doubt is wavering faith. To waver means to go to and fro between two opinions, two choices, two loves or two directions. Doubters have an ‘on and off’ type of faith. For example, they believe on Monday, but doubt on Tuesday, then back to believing on Wednesday, and so on. The sin of doubt affects especially three areas of God’s blessings:
• God’s power (especially the supernatural power to experience miracles)
• God’s provision (especially to trust God for abundance)
• God’s promises (especially to trust God for ‘impossible’ things)
Doubters are like the waves of the sea. They move on and off, day and night, without rest. All their movement is in vain for they do not expand the boundaries of the sea. Doubt makes you worried and overactive emotionally but there is no clear progress spiritually or in the natural. Doubters are ‘unstable’ in all their ways. The word ‘unstable’ means to be reckless (they seem bold and take unnecessary risks, but later back off as cowards). It also means to be confused, restless, and unsettled.
Marriages can be affected by doubt. The husband and wife may agree to do something but the next day one of them will change his mind. The unity of the Spirit cannot be established in a marriage where doubt has access. The worst thing that can be said about a doubter is that God refuses to answer his prayers. It does not matter that his needs are great or urgent. Doubt disqualifies him to have communion with God and his prayers do not pass the ceiling. We must repent of the sin of doubt and confess: ‘I believe in God!’
In Christ I declare:
I believe 100 percent and doubt for me is 0 percent! I trust God’s power! My miracle is coming soon! I trust God’s provision! I am blessed with more than enough! I trust God’s promises! They are all yes and amen!
In Jesus’ name,


“Again, the kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field, which a man found and hid; and for joy over it he goes and sells all that he has and buys that field” (Mt 13:44)

This is a word for the born again children of God. I encourage you to pay the price to gain the assurance of your salvation and spiritual maturity! Christ is the ‘treasure hidden in a field’. The man who found the treasure is me and is you.

Many seek for hidden treasures all over the world. I read that seeking for treasures is a very expensive form of adventure. They say that pirates hid their stolen treasures in some islands. They wanted to come back later to get them. But they died before they could come back. People look for things like these. But it is not easy to be a treasure hunter. It takes time, physical and mental effort, and a lot of money. It is a dangerous work. Looking for treasures in strange places you are exposed to attacks from wicked men, thieves or wild animals. It is also a lonely work. In the open field it is just you and the dreams that you chase. You need to encourage yourself to go on. There are no human encouragers around. It is not easy… I have been there… I know…

In Greek, the word ‘field’ means a village farm. Try to imagine this story as you seek God. Finally, after years of seeking and digging, you find the greatest treasure of all, Jesus Christ! But you cannot shout for joy! You quietly rejoice by yourself. This is not the time to run and tell your family and friends: ‘I am a rich man! I have made it!’ This is not the time to post it on Facebook “I have found the fulfillment of my dreams!” It is true, you have found it but it is not yet your own! By freely taking from that treasure you will be called a thief. This is because the land that hosted the treasure for thousands of years is not your own. You need to buy the land before you have the treasure. It is like a man who wants to marry and he finally finds the girl of his dreams. He cannot announce that he is married to that girl. People will insult him! He has to pay a ‘bride price’ in the presence of witnesses before he can call that woman ‘my wife’. If not, he is an adulterer and a thief. The man who finds the treasure has to bury it again. This is the wisdom of the Kingdom of God: You find Christ and then you say to Him: ‘Good bye for now…I will come back and see You again…You shall be mine forever…’

The man goes back to the city and announces that he wants to become a farmer. His rich sophisticated friends laugh at his foolishness. ‘A farmer… What a joke…’ But that is all that he can say, for now. He announces that he is selling all his property in the city so that he can buy a farm in the village. He does not sell his things grudgingly. He sells them rejoicing. There is something strange about this man… he is so happy with his decision to change his address….this transition is mysterious to many who do not understand his new love for village things…. he is selling his expensive ‘condo in the Trump tower’ to go and buy a farm in the village… he sells his Mercedes Benz telling people he needs money to buy a farm… nobody knows the secret or the source of his joy…deep secret joy… not shared joy, at least not now…

Do you understand this parable? To ‘find Christ’ is not enough. You need to possess Christ, to be filled with His Word and His Spirit! Then you can truly say that Christ is yours! Not every Christian can say this: ‘My Beloved is mine and I am His”. You need to lose your life for His sake before you can have Christ! There is a price to pay to enter the mystery of this treasure called Christ. In Him there is all the wisdom and the knowledge of eternal life!

I have seen people who claim to be born again but they turn back from total commitment to the Lord, holding tight their little treasures money bought for them. Like with the rich your ruler who could not sell his things to truly find eternal life, a man may see Christ face to face, worship Him for a time but still go back to the world of sin, sad ‘for he has great possessions’.

This is my testimony! This is the truth that I have found: Christ is the greatest Blessing of all! He is the Gift from heaven! He is worthy more than silver or gold, more than the friendship of the best of friends, more than fame and more than culture. I testify that me, a sinner saved by His grace, I have found Him buried in the field called Nigeria! I thank God for the wisdom of not cheaply and foolishly brag about my achievement in finding Him ‘whom my soul loves’. For a long time I had to let go of His benefits and go back to my world of wealthy educated sinners. I simply told them that I am selling my things.

One by one, my cherished treasures of a life time of struggle were sold. This was a painful transition. But there was joy in that pain. I walked on the royal way of the Cross knowing that one day I can openly boast that Jesus is mine! Persecution is part of the price you pay to possess Christ. But it is all worth it! Oh…it is all worth it! After losing all things, I took my money and went to buy that field. The owner, an agent of the devil, had no idea why I am willing to pay all that for a ‘dirty old God forsaken’ field. That is what the devil called my dream. He said that he tried planting cassava and yam there, but the field is barren. I did not argue with him. I just wanted the deed of the land. I did not buy it to plant flowers there. I did not need a garden in Warri. I wanted what is hidden beneath the surface. The devil did not know what I was looking for. Thank God he did now know! He finally sold it to me. Jesus shed His Blood to be my Savior. I shed my tears and sweat to be His Servant! The deed is sealed! This is an eternal transaction no man or devil can steal. I declare that God loves Warri- Effurun, in Nigeria! Glory to the Lamb who seats on the throne! Now and forever! Amen! I am a child of God!

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