‘For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of God’ (Rom 8:20)
Again, let me make it personal: before I read the Bible for the first time in my life, I did not know what is called sin. I did not believe in a holy God that could be offended by my sins. I thought that even if God exists He is too far and too detached from me; that my sins are my own business and not his.
I had my own idea of what is good and what is bad and I judged myself and others based on that. I was my own god and I invented my own righteousness. Looking back I see my foolishness all the more!
I remember the first time I read the Bible. My encounter with the Word was terrifying. I just came face to face with God who hated sin. I saw myself for the first time in my life as a sinner in need of salvation. I tried to read just my life based on what I discovered in the Bible, but all that new behavior still did not bring peace to my soul.
I thought that I will die and go to hell. All my arguments, all my good deeds and all that I stood for, became useless to me. I needed something else to cling to. God did not reveal to me the hope in Christ until the Holy Spirit finished His work of conviction.
Then the light shone in my heart…I saw Christ Crucified praying for me…His Blood shed for me…Too good to be true? Is that what you say? It may be so, but the grace to believe the impossible came, descended on my dying soul…and I became saved.
Except you have passed this path, this valley of the shadow of death…you can never believe so to be saved!