MY HEART IS AWAKE

SONG OF SONGS – MY HEART IS AWAKE  

“I have come to my garden, my sister, my spouse; I have gathered my myrrh with my spice; I have eaten my honeycomb with my honey; I have drunk my wine with my milk. (To His Friends) Eat, O friends! Drink, yes, drink deeply, O beloved ones!” (SS 5:1). The Song of Solomon is a prophetic love poem describing how King Solomon fell in love and got married to a beautiful simple girl. It is a picture of passionate marital love. Spiritually, it describes the love between Christ and His Bride, the Church. The Groom is called The Lover, and the Bride is called The Beloved. Their relationship is pure, romantic, deep, intimate, and loving as with family members. Please read Chapter 5:1-9.

The Song of songs is one of the least understood books in the Bible. Most Christians just ignore it. But because the Holy Spirit placed in the Bible, we must pay the price to study it. King Solomon is the author. The Book is a collection of love poems. They describe the romantic passionate love between King Solomon and a simple beautiful girl called Shulamite. The poems can also be applied to romantic love in a happy marriage, like when water turns to wine. Spiritually, it describes the Agape Love between Christ, who is the Bridegroom and His Church, who is His Bride. The Jews read this Book only once a year in their synagogues. They do it so that their love for God does not become lukewarm, legalistic, routine, forced. They do it to add romance and spices to their religion. Pray that the Holy Spirit opens your understanding and appreciation the greatest Love of all! This is the Gospel: Jesus died and rose again for me! Jesus is My First Love!

He said: I came to my garden! It is His garden. Her heart is his garden. Like Garden of Eden, it is a beautiful place with colorful aromatic flowers, a place of encounter between God and man. The Lover gathers spices; each is a symbol or something deep and spiritual. The gathering or myrrh and spices shows Christ’s delight in the richness and fragrance of His relationship with His Bride. It is based on His sacrificial love. Myrrh is a fragrant resin used for religious purposes. It was a very expensive item, often worth its weight in gold. Myrrh was one of the ingredients for making the holy anointing oil signifying its role in consecration and holiness. Myrrh was also used as perfume (Esther 2:12) and for embalming the dead (John 19). The wise men brought myrrh to baby Jesus, a prophetic gift predicting Jesus’ sacrificial death (Matt 2:11). In the Bible, myrrh is often associated with suffering and death. It was used during the crucifixion and burial of Jesus. Spiritually, myrrh means sacrifice, worship, and anointing with the Holy Spirit. It is a reminder of the cost of redemption.

Honey symbolizes sweetness, spiritual nourishment and dreams come true. Milk is a symbol of nourishment for spiritual growth. The Promised Land was “a land of milk and honey”. Wine is a symbol of celebration in general and in the wedding feast and marriage in particular. The Groom invites his guests, his friends, to eat and drink at the wedding feast. It shows that weddings are celebrated in the presence of others. The food and the drink are in abundance. The Bridegroom is extremely happy and generous to all. Spiritually, this sweet food and celebration is found only in a relationship with Christ. Your heart is the Garden of the Lord. He is never far. He freely comes into the gardens of our hearts. He receives our worship and rejoices in it. Grace is always abundant, overflowing to guests and friends. Each morning be sure that your heart is always open to Him, to come and collect the fruits of the Holy Spirit. No stranger should be found in that Garden. It is for Christ alone! Tell others how sweet your life in Christ is, from the overflowing cup of His Saving Grace.

The Bride sleeps and at the same time, her heart is “awake.” It shows physical rest and spiritual alertness. As believers, we live in this world, but we are not “of this world”. We hear the voice of Christ in our hearts. My heart is awake. It is ready to respond to the voice of Christ, day or night. The Groom knocks at my heart. Christ is outside the garden, by the gate of your heart. He strongly desires to enter. His love is persistent. Christ loves the Church. Christ loves you! The knock is in the night. There is opposition from forces of darkness. He had to fight them to come to you. He calls the Church “My sister, My love, My dove, Me perfect one”. This shows an intimate relationship, like siblings in a family, but also romantic and special. The Church is the Dove of Christ. Christ sees you pure and perfect. Christ died and rose again so that His Church will be holy. “He might present her to Himself a glorious church, not having spot or wrinkle or any such thing, but that she should be holy and without blemish” (Eph 5:27). On earth, Christ’ love must be reflected in the husband’s love for his wife.

The head of the Groom is covered with dew. This shows blessings. In Isreal, rain is rare. Between May and October, there is no rain. The temperature rises above 42 degrees Celsius. The place is dry and hot. Dew comes in the night, at the places that need it the most. The dew supplies the water needed for the plants to grow. The dew does not “fall” from the sky like the rain. Dew is mysterious water produced by plants as they cool down after a long hot day. Dew is a symbol of the Holy Spirit that gives spiritual life to men living in the desert of sin. Dew comes quietly. There is no noise, no force, no thunder, like with the rain. When the Holy Spirit comes to our hearts, we may not feel anything, but our spirit is quickened. We become alive with the life of God. When the heart is dry and tired, the heavenly Dew comes and brings the much-needed revival. Dew is like a love medicine ready to restore backsliders. It is a sign of revival, of hope.

“I have taken off my robe; How can I put it on again? I have washed my feet; How can I defile them?” Before going to rest in bed, the Bride washes her feet and takes off her robe. The robe is a symbol of covering and protection from the temptation of the world. It can also be a sign of status, like Joseph’s robe. Removing the robe means detaching herself from the duties of leadership in the world. The bride is reluctant to dress again and go outside to work. She prefers to rest on her bed. There is a tension between duty and comfort, the voice of good against the best, between the desires of the flesh and of the spirit. She knows that the Bridegroom is calling her to a higher level of spirituality, even when it is inconvenient. She must pay the price to be like Him. She must share in His sufferings. Lying on her soft bed, she struggles with that. Human nature resists changes and disruption once she is settled. Washing your feet is an act of humility. Getting out of bed means getting your feet dirty again. That requires a new washing of the feet. The Groom is humble. Humility is His lifestyle. But for the Bride, practicing Humility is not easy. That is why she grumbles in her heart.

“My beloved put his hand by the latch of the door, And my heart yearned for him… My beloved extended his hand through the opening [of the door], And my feelings were aroused for him” (SS 5:4; NKJ; AMP). The Lover takes the initiative of love. He puts His hand by the latch of the door. The latch is an iron rod pushed into a hole to keep the door closed. It is for protection. The Beloved wants to open the door and see His bride. The Lover’s touch of the latch is a gentle invitation to a deeper relationship with her. He loves her. He is patient with her. He waits to see her response. Lying on her bed, she hears the Groom. Her heart starts to pound for Him. This is a deep emotional and even physical reaction to his Love for her. Spiritually, in God’s presence, our very soul is stirred and responds to God’s Love.

Initially, the Bride was not sure if she could love as she is loved. She knows that Her Groom loves her sacrificially. He is ready to die for her. She has some doubts whether she is ready to love like this. Eventually, she decides to answer the call to carry her cross and follow her Beloved. She rises from the bed of comfort and goes to the door. This time, she does not care if she must take her robe again, or if she must wash her feet the second time. These sacrifices look small compared with the excitement of seeing her Beloved. Her hands drip with liquid perfumed myrrh, overflow of love and devotion. She now has the same fragrance as Him.

“I opened for my beloved, But my beloved had turned away and was gone. My heart leaped up when he spoke. I sought him, but I could not find him; I called him, but he gave me no answer”. Finally, the Bride opens the door for her Lover. He did not want to force entry. Christ wants us to open our hearts to Him. At the door, she discovered that he had gone away. This shows missed opportunities, the effect of spiritual negligence. She was too slow to come and open the door. There were doubts and grumblings in her heart. She took His love for granted. She has made him sad. “My heart sank at His departure… My heart was pounding…”  This is deep disappointment, feeling of loss, regret, anxiety, desperate longing to find Him. She goes out to look for him. She calls Him, but there is no answer. This shows the soul’s seeking God, for a closer fellowship. God sometimes hides Himself. He keeps silent. This is a picture of Grieving the Holy Spirit. There is need for repentance, praying for mercy, and seeking God afresh. It does not mean that God has abandoned us. He wants us to repent from spiritual laziness and infatuation with material comfort. He wants us to desire Him again. We must seek God with faith, perseverance, and thru fasting and prayer until we find Him afresh. Go back to the Bible. This is revival. It is also a warning against spiritual complacency and procrastination. We know that even in times of silence, the covenant of Love between Christ and the believer stands forever. If we seek Him with all our hearts, we shall find Him. Lessons: obedience must be instant, joyful and total. Delayed, grumbling and partial obedience are counted as disobedience. It grieves the Holy Spirit, and it dulls intimacy. Keep seeking when He feels distant. You must press into Scripture, worship, prayer and fellowship. Remember past experiences of His faithfulness, because remembrance fuels hope. Trust His steadfast love and not your fluctuating feelings. On the road to Emmaus, the disciples’ disappointment turned to burning hearts when He revealed Himself (Lk 24:21,32). True love acts quickly when it hears the Lover’s voice.

“The watchmen who went about the city found me. They struck me, they wounded me; The keepers of the walls took my veil away from me”. The desperate Bride takes the risk and goes out in the night, looking for her Lover. Instead of help, she meets trouble. She is beaten, stripped, humiliated. In pursuing deeper intimacy with Jesus, the devil will try to stop you. You may encounter unexpected resistance. The watchmen are supposed to keep order, security and peace, especially at night. They represent the civil authority or religious leaders who misunderstand or oppose righteous zeal (seen in Paul’s clashes with synagogue leaders). When seeking for God or for justice, how must we behave? Refuse bitterness. Love your enemies. Pray for them. Lean on Jesus! Draw even closer to Him, as the Bride did! The picture of being beaten is a symbol of Jesus who was wounded for our transgressions. It shows the cost of sacrificial love. The watchmen took away her veil, her clothes, her covering. Being naked on the streets is a sign of rejection and humiliation. In our spiritual walk, we feel exposed and vulnerable, yet these moments lead to deeper reliance on God. This is another picture of Jesus, crucified naked in the pursuit of Love. The men who represent the government authority cannot protect believers who seek for Jesus. There is always danger of misusing the power given to them. God remains the ultimate protector for the oppressed and humble. This calls for perseverance and faith.

“I charge you, O daughters of Jerusalem, If you find my beloved, Tell him I am lovesick!” The “daughters of Jerusalem” are women of the city, represent the audience, who witness the story of the Bride seeking her Groom. Love is not only personal. Especially loving Jesus. It also has a public demonstration. In our spiritual journey, community plays a vital role in helping and guiding us. The Bride is charging the women to find her Beloved. It is a deep and serious request. Her lovesickness is not sentimental; it is spiritual, physical, emotional, and urgent. Asking others to “tell him” assumes that the Beloved will respond. True spiritual longing anticipates an encounter. That is faith! This shows the importance of communication in any relationship. Learn to confess your need and your pain to others. Let them pray for you. To be “lovesick” is a consuming passion like fire in the heart. This emotion is so strong that it affects the body and the soul. “As the deer longs for streams of water, so I long for you, O God” (Ps 42:1; NLT). The intensity of this love reflects Christ’s love for the church, who died to save her. Learn to Cultivate lovesickness: set apart undistracted time with the Lord until the soul notices His absence. Tell Jesus: “Lord, I miss You!” This seeking and finding is the romance of Christianity, the dance only true lovers of Jesus can learn. Worship the Lord!

GRIEVE NOT THE HOLY SPIRIT

“And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, by whom you were sealed for the day of redemption… And do not bring sorrow to God’s Holy Spirit by the way you live. Remember, he has identified you as his own, guaranteeing that you will be saved on the day of redemption… And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God [but seek to please Him], by whom you were sealed and marked [branded as God’s own] for the day of redemption [the final deliverance from the consequences of sin]… Don’t give God’s Holy Spirit any reason to be upset with you. He has put his seal on you for the day you will be set free [from the world of sin]” (Eph 4:30; NKJ, NLT; AMP; GOD’S WORD TRANSLATION)

God the Holy Spirit can grieve. This is the revelation of the Bible. The word “grieve” means to feel deep sorrow, pain, or great sadness, especially at the death of someone who was very dear. Grieving the Holy Spirit is peculiar to Christianity. No other religion tells you that their god grieves. This is a reminder that the Holy Spirit is a Person. A thing cannot be sad, only a person can grieve. The Holy Spirit dwells in us. He is tender as a Dove. God has humbled Himself to come to our level. He can be grieved by us. This is a fact: Men can disappoint God, their greatest Lover. When we forget this, we fall into so many troubles. The Holy Spirit can be grieved only by believers. We grieve Him with our sinful thoughts, words or actions; by failure to realize that He is in us, and by ignoring Him when he speaks. He can be hurt by our unwillingness to Love as we are loved. Anything that is not holy grieves the HOLY Spirit. Our heavenly Comforter can be made sad by our sins!!! Because the Spirit empowers us in the sanctification process, grieving Him hinders spiritual growth and fellowship with God.

When you grieve the Holy Spirit, you do not lose your salvation. A seal is a seal! But there are many great losses. By grieving the Holy Spirit, the Christian loses his peace, his assurance and joy of salvation. He loses his spiritual power. For example, if you pray, it will be a very weak prayer; you will not prevail with God. When you read the Bible, you shall not be able to gain revelation. When you go to the house of God, you feel bored. You feel like Samson when his hair is cut, lost, weak, captive, and blind. Let the Holy Spirit depart, and assurance is gone, doubts, questionings and suspicions are aroused. Usefulness in ministry will cease. Your ministry shall yield no fruit; your words will fall to the ground. There is spiritual confusion, lack of direction. Because your protection is gone, demonic attacks increase. Worship the Lord!

2 comments on “MY HEART IS AWAKE

  1. CCrum's avatar CCrum says:

    Thank you Lia, for this beautiful word to the body of Christ. So many deep and precious things are spoken in this book of the Bible. How treasured above all else is our relationship with the Father,Son,and Holy Spirit. Every day we should look forward to our times with Him as he alone knows what the day will bring. So grateful for my inheritance. My heart rejoices to see a fruitful garden growing there at Father’s House. Be blessed and encouraged my dear Sister. We will always have the sweetest memories of you and R.

    • Silvia Lia Leigh, MD's avatar Silvia Lia Leigh, MD says:

      Like the wine, the older we get in Christ, the sweeter our relationship with Him becomes. English language is not enough to describe the fragrance of Grace upon Grace, and Life unto life. Glory to God!

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