“I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me” (Gal 2:20)
I was an unbeliever and an atheist until I was 32. I did not believe in God, in devils, in heaven or hell. As a doctor I discouraged my patients…I told them not to pray, because ‘prayer is useless’. Oh, the amazing grace of God… I became saved here in Warri, Nigeria, on the 14th of March, 1986. It was a crisis conversion. It was not thru the ‘regular way’ of church activities. The Holy Spirit arrested me and brought me to my knees. I did not attend a church before that time. I did not see a Bible with my eyes before I came to Nigeria. I prayed the ‘sinner’s prayer’ by myself in my living room. I did not know it was called like that. I only wept and wept for my sins.My broken heart and my tears were ‘the sinner’s prayer’. I told God to either save me and use me or kill me there. It pained me that i destroyed the faith of many by my proud talk as an unbeliever. God answered my prayer: He killed me in my living room. The old Lia, died there. In the same time, God’s mercy was revealed to me. The Holy Spirit filled me there. I became a new creation! I became a child of God!
After that I started reading the Bible and going to a church here in Warri. But because of my conversion outside the church set up, from the beginning I knew the difference between the Holy Spirit and the religious spirits. This knowledge has helped me since then.
I am a pastor of a church now. I know my limits. When I minister, I depend totally on the Holy Spirit to lead the way and to work in the hearts. I refuse to use any form of manipulation to change somebody. To me, it is better to be a honest unbeliever than a religious hypocrite. I am also careful to give all the glory to God for any good work done thru me.
Jesus set me free! One of the greatest revelations for me was to find out that a man (or a woman) can live on this earth totally fulfilled, completely free from all fears and inferiority complexes. When I gave my life to Christ, I was so happy to know that my sins have been forgiven. It was even a greater surprise to discover that forgiveness of sins is just the beginning of the blessed Spirit filled life. So many other moments of joy have paved the narrow royal way of the Cross!
It is such a sad thing that so few Christians desire to know the power of the Cross. They run away from the Cross, not knowing that they cheat themselves by ‘denying the power thereof’.
As for me, long ago I made up my mind that I will go closer to the Cross and study it by myself. There is a magnetic attraction for me to go and see, and touch, and listen…to any drop of revelation…The Word of God about the Blood shed on that Cross… I fast and pray to know it more…
Just the way many people here in Nigeria are desperate to go ‘abroad’ so am I to go to the Cross of Christ. But something strange happened… The closer I went to Calvary, the fewer people I met. But loneliness is a small price to pay for the excellency of knowing my Lord, in the glory of His crucifixion and resurrection power. There are no words to describe the love manifested on that hill far away…In the light of this love I breathe and I dwell… This is my story: Christ gave Himself for me! Glory!