For some time I have been praying to be able to enter the feelings of my Lord Jesus Christ. Tonight I had prepared a wonderful message. But coming to the service I discovered that the brethren were not able to ‘bear’ the Word. If it was an ‘ordinary’ religious church service, I could have gone ahead, if they are prepared to listen or not. But in a prophetic prayer meeting, I need to be led by the Holy Spirit in all things. The Spirit will tell me when to move and when to stop; when to speak and when to keep quiet.
I know the frustration of Jesus, how it feels to come loaded with gifts, desiring to give them to people, wishing to empty myself of grace…but… go home still full. For the recipients were not able to receive the goods prepared for them. “I still have many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now. However, when He, the Spirit of truth, has come, He will guide you into all truth…” (Jn 16:12, 13)
With so many doubts opposing the flow of the Holy Spirit and with all these religious spirits blocking my path, what do I do then? I had to leave my gifts and go and help the brethren, as they are. Most of them came to church heavy laden from the burdens of life. There was a terrible spirit of anxiety connected with the world events. It made them depressed, tired and sluggish. That is not the way to worship God… I encouraged them to press on for there is no other hope than the one found in Christ. Thank God the Holy Spirit took over and gave the few willing ones, the humble ones, joy unspeakable and full of glory. Others stayed behind, afraid of the waves in the ocean of grace… they could not enter the anointing. They missed it. But for those who by faith, jumped in the river of life, who said “Father God, I come to You… if I perish, I perish…” burdens melted and blind eyes opened to see the King of kings in His beauty. This evening, what the devil planned for evil God turned it into good. God always turns bad things for good! He has no limitations! What a mighty God we serve! Heaven and earth adore Him! Angels bow before Him! Hallelujah!