“Wait on the LORD; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the LORD!” (Ps 27:14)
This period, since my husband’s transition to glory, has been the most difficult time of my life. Without the Holy Spirit in me and by my side, I could have collapsed, spiritually and physically. This is the truth. But God… But God… Against all odds, when I was at my weakest, I sensed a power carrying me like the mother eagle carries her children on her strong wings. This power is surely not my own. To the glory of God, to the shame of the devil, and for the encouragement of the brethren, this is my present testimony: by the grace of God, I am getting stronger daily. The strength comes in like an ‘IV drip’ in my veins. Not too much at once. Drop by drop, slowly and steadily, the strength comes in. My broken heart is healing and getting stronger. This is a true miracle! The best way to describe this miracle is the power of resurrection rising in my soul. All glory to God who alone can manifest such power and grace. Money cannot buy it and men cannot give or take away. It is the gift of God.
I am learning a new lesson… In the scripture above you see that you must fulfill some conditions for God to grant new strength to your heart. The first condition is this: Wait on the Lord! Even in your pain, even when you do not understand what God is doing, you must still acknowledge God and wait for Him to come, to touch you and your circumstances. When you are in pain or in trouble, God seems slow in coming to help you. Reject impatience and doubt! Wait on God! The truth is this: God is never too fast and never too slow. He is exactly right on time. God’s time! It is a good spiritual exercise to wait for God to come. Once He comes, in one second everything changes, and you will be happy and grateful for the fruitful wait.
The second condition for God to strengthen your heart is for you to be strong, to exercise courage first. Reject the spirit of fainting! By faith, God wants you to exercise courage in that difficult situation before He will add strength to your inner man. As God gives wisdom to the wise, so He gives strength to those who chose to stand in the power of His might. In a way, God waits for you as you wait on Him! You must take the position of a soldier carrying your weapons, even if you are wounded in battle. Then God will heal your wound as you do His work.
As for me, I was not what you call a courageous person. Before I became born again, I was indeed a coward. I used to run from confrontations. My husband was the bold one in the family. After I became Spirit filled, it the Holy Spirit who helped me to change. My husband used to rebuke me and pray for me for boldness to stand, in life and in ministry. He used to say: “Lia, you can do it! Stop hiding! Stand up! Trust God and trust in yourself! You are a woman of God!” I still hear his words… Courage is defined as the ability to control your fear in a dangerous or difficult situation; it means to be brave and confident enough to do what you believe in! For me, courage came when I knew that I must stand for Christ’ sake, for our children, for our grandchildren and for the brethren in the church. As a mother in Israel, God helped me to ignore my pain and stand up for others. I decided to fight depression, doubt, and fear. I prayed and prayed, in English and tongues. Once I made the choice to stand and fight the enemy’s flood of evil, strength came from above. I felt I was not alone. Indeed, I am not alone. You are not alone. God is our God from beginning to the end. God is our strength and song and now He has become our salvation, our boast, victory, and testimony!
Dear brethren, I encourage you to wait for God to come to you, to invade your home and to your circumstances. Fast, pray and wait! He will come! God never fails! God knows His job! The miracle is on its way! I believe with you! Nothing is impossible for God! I encourage you to be strong and fight back that sickness, that poverty, that trouble. As you do so, more strength shall be released to you. I love you brethren! It is well with us! God bless you all! Love in Christ alone, Malia.
(Pastor (Mrs) Silvia Lia Leigh, 25-07-2020)