“Seek the LORD, and His strength: seek His face evermore… I love you, Lord, my strength” (Ps 105:4; 18:1)
Dear brethren, I want to share my present testimony with you! These are days of fire purifying my soul. Since my husband went to heaven, many things have changed for me. This is my new reality. I do not want to let depression or doubt master me. I am a born-again Christian. I am a woman of God, a servant of God! Since I gave my life to Christ in March 1986, Jesus is my Lord! The Holy Spirit fills me, directing me in the path of life. If I look only at what I have I lost, I will despair. I ‘lost’ my blessed work as a wife to a beloved man on earth. This is a big loss for me for I took my duty as his wife and helpmeet as a ministry before God. Since Tali went to heaven, I cannot hold his hand, I cannot pray for him, encourage him, or cook for him … That is lost…
So, what is left? As the shock of not seeing him on earth is slowly fading away, I discovered that, to my surprise, I did not lose everything. My work and ministry as a mother, grandmother, and a pastor to many is still with me. I did not lose that. I can still be a mother in Christ to many. I can still pastor the flock of Christ under my care. This is my calling from God. This is my duty, work, ministry, and privilege. I must be found faithful in the field God has planted me. By the grace of God, I decided to stand and do my work, to the glory of God! The devil attacked my mind saying: ‘you have lost your husband. There is nothing now to live for…’ Initially, I listened to the voice of the liar. Then suddenly, by the power of the Holy Spirit I stood on my feet and decided to fight back. I needed my mind back! I have the mind of Christ! I did spiritual warfare! I prayed with a loud voice, both in English and in tongues, rejecting every lie of the devil! I choose to keep my eyes and heart fixed on Jesus! I choose to feed my soul with the Word of God, even if, for now, I can only ‘eat it’ small portions. In the past, I can read many pages in the Bible without getting tired. Now, I read slowly, one scripture at a time. I meditate on the Word; I pray the Word and store it in my heart. The Word brings light, truth, healing, strength, and anointing. So, by the grace of God, I am getting stronger every day. I appreciate the Word of God and prayer more than ever before. Thank you so much for all your prayers and words of love and encouragement!
The most ‘useful injection’ I feel I have received from the Holy Spirit is that of His strength. On my own, I feel week. But I sense a fresh infusion of strength, God’s strength that carries me on. My mind is stronger to think without any anxiety. My will is stronger to make the right decisions, without doubting. My emotions are stronger, under control. My body itself co-cooperates and benefits from God’s strength. Slowly, my appetite for food is coming back. I sleep better. This is my testimony. God’s face shines on me and mine by giving us supernatural strength. Our lives are to be lived in His presence! To His glory! I encourage you dear brethren to stand in the power of God’s might! Fight the good fight of faith! We are lions and lionesses, children of the Lion of the tribe of Judah! Like Tali used to say: ‘for a lion to run from an antelope, that is an abomination’. This morning, I pray for you, for the strength to fast, pray and wait for God. Fear not! God is with us! Only good must come out of this ‘holy assembly’ in the Spirit! Be strong! Be encouraged! I love you all with the love of the Lord! God bless you! Love in Christ alone, Malia!
(Pastor (Mrs) Silvia Lia Leigh/ 27-07-2020)